he tells me that high school is not the time for dating college students. he tells me it's best that nothing happens. not right now. & when i ask if we're done with this, we both come to the conclusion that it's only done for now.
i talked to camron on the phone. he called me. & says, after i start talking of my bad day at school, "oh, because of blake? ... how he said he liked you & backed out? ... oh, well, you've still got me." it makes me feel bad. the phone calls are mine & blake's.
i called blake later. & we were fine. we acted the same as always.
it hurts. i thought i had something, & i didn't. i hate myself for doing this, bringing it upon myself. but like i keep saying. it happens.