it's a strange feeling, to be so apathetic towards someone. fearing that some sense of emotion might come back when they're in your presence. avoidance. it's almost amusing when the words fall out and it's quick and easy, painless. nothing.
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sleep comes easy with warm arms wrapped around me.
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i sit into my car, turn the ignition, wait to be warmed up. start to drive. and realize there's no fucking direction in my life at all right now.
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i think maybe it's pretty bad when you nearly break down in tears while you're waiting in line at fazoli's after the academic team match, and you feel bad that everyone's worried about you being upset. when really you're just stressed out. you're always stressed out.
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i need to relax.